Total, endless, abject emptiness

I honestly don’t know how I survive this.

I’ve never been this sad. This scared. This regretful. This broken. This alone.

The pain is so brutal that I can’t imagine there’s a way out unless I choose one I don’t wanna choose.

I didn’t know it was possible to hurt this bad. To feel this helpless. This desperate. And to be without anyone to talk with. I’m writing this in a blog literally no one knows exists.

The pain is unimaginable. I didn’t know it was possible to hurt this bad.

I’m absolutely lost.