Very Slightly Unterrible

It’s been three weeks. Today is Day 21.

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Yesterday wasn’t fun and has already begun to blur. I had to work, so I could’t watch the Astros second ALCS game against the Yankees. During my break, I walked to a nearby store for some more (yet more) milktea and used the pitch-tracker on the MLB app to ‘watch’ a bit of the game’s extra innings. I found what I wanted to buy and set my phone down as Carlos Correa was batting. Seconds later he hit a walk-off homerun. I threw my arms up and the cashier looked at me, down at my phone, then laughed.

I returned home after work and managed to fall asleep for what I thought would be 15-30 minutes – hopeful considering how little sleep I’ve been getting. About 70 minutes later I woke up. That was a first in a long, long time.

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Later in the day some stuff happened that I can’t piece together now. None of it was particular interesting.

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In the evening I took another walk to Starbucks (where I’m typing this after work the following day). After staying until just before closing at 2am, I took a long, twisting walk home. >6km. I was up late after, not actually getting to sleep until well after 7am.

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Compared with my recent existence, it wasn’t an entirely terrible day. During one of my early lessons, I made myself laugh, altho I can’t remember why (I almost never remember my own jokes). And on the way home from work I stopped at a coffee shop and did something so absent-mindedly dumb that I had my first proper, full-throated laugh in over a month. It wasn’t entirely awful.

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It’s been just 3 weeks and a lifetime all at once.

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